六个月前
洛杉矶市民进入创纪录高温
Angelenos head into day five
和全城大停电的第五天
of record heat and a citywide power outage.
如果浴缸就让你很开心
If you think this is great,
等我带你去看海 你会更开心
wait till I show you the ocean.
不
No.
她应该会没事的 但你感觉怎么样?
I think she's gonna be fine. But how are you doing?
还在发抖
Shaky.
感觉肾上腺素正在消退
I just feel like the adrenaline's wearing off.
你应该带她回家 你们都需要好好睡一觉
Then you should get her home. I bet you both could use a good night's sleep.
嗨
Hi.
我相信你肯定感到很困惑
I am sure that you're confused
受伤 可能还很害怕
and hurt and... and probably really scared.
我不知道该说些什么
I don't... really know what to say.
你不用去报警或者来找我
You don't need to go to the police, or come looking for me.
我没有任何危险 也没有受人逼迫
I'm not in any danger, and no one is making me do this.
但小姬跟我在一起不安全
But Jee is not safe with me.
现在不安全 可能...
Not now and maybe...
我知道你会照顾好她的
I know that you're gonna take really good care of her.
没有我在她会过得更好
And she's better off without me.
我爱你
I love you.
我爱你们
I love both of you.
我真的很抱歉
And I'm really sorry.
-怎么回事? -麦迪 你对他做了什么?
-What is going on? -Maddie, what did you do to him?
-你从哪弄来的? -你应该把它留在原处
-Where did you get that? -You should have left it where it was.
-你认为这是我的错吗 -不 是我的错
-Do you think this was my fault? -No, it was my fault.
没错
That's right.
你从来都不是被抛下的那个人 你是离开的那个
You're never the one getting left behind. You're the one who leaves.
可如果你或者她出了什么事... 我承受不了 麦迪
If something was to happen to you or her, I can't carry that, Maddie.
我会因此崩溃的 所以求你...
That will be the thing that breaks me, so please...
紧急呼救 s05e12 Boston
波士顿 三天后
你最近有自杀的想法吗
Have you had any suicidal thoughts recently?
有
Yes.
经常 偶尔还是很少?
Frequently, sometimes, or rarely?
在过去几个月里
Past few months.
你以前有过自杀的想法吗
Have you had suicidal thoughts in your past?
偶尔
Sometimes.
多久之前的事?
How long ago?
我的前夫有虐待行为
I was in an abusive marriage.
当时想过自杀 但没有这么强烈
I had thoughts then, but not like this.
那之前呢 在成长过程中
What about before that? Growing up,
你有过抑郁的感觉吗
did you have any feelings of depression?
-自杀倾向呢 -有过抑郁
-Suicidal ideations? -Depression? Yeah.
从小时候起就断断续续有
Off and on. It started when I was a kid.
从几岁开始的?
At what age?
我不知道 九岁 十岁的样子
I don't know, like, nine, ten.
你那时还很小
You were very young.
我弟弟病死了
My brother died. He was sick.
我很遗憾
I'm sorry for your loss.
你当时这么小 一定很难承受
That must've been hard at such a young age.
你们家有家族抑郁史吗
Is there a history of depression in your family?
我妈妈在我弟弟死后经常说不想活了
My mom. She, uh... ...talked a lot about wanting to die after losing my brother.
你有过任何形式的自残行为吗
Do you engage in any form of self-harm?
没有
No.
但是三天前 我试过跳海自杀
But three days ago, I tried to drown myself in the ocean.
好了
Okay,
等帕蒂给你抽完血
after Patty's done taking your blood,
我们送你去做心电图和脑CT
we'll take you to get an ECG and a CT scan,
然后你就可以休息一下了
and then you can get some rest.
明天怎么安排?
What happens tomorrow?
7点吃早饭 8点吃药 9点小组讨论
Breakfast starts at 7:00. Meds at 8:00. Group starts at 9:00.
好了 8点吃药
Okay, and meds are at 8:00.
你应该吃点东西
You should eat something.
巴克利女士 你的促甲状腺激素位于临界值
Ms. Buckley, your TSH levels are borderline.
你们家有甲状腺病史吗
Do you have family history of thyroid issues?
据我所知没有
Not that I'm aware of.
但是我妈妈和我不讨论这种事 或者说是...任何事
Although, my mom and I don't talk about stuff like that, or... anything really.
好 我们再做几项检查
Okay. Let's run some more tests.
医生要求再做一项检查
Doctor's ordered another test.
还要抽血? 真的假的
More blood? Seriously?
你会觉得还不如是血
You might wish it were blood.
-你让我尿在这里面? -在接下来的24小时内
-You-you want me to pee in that? -For the next 24 hours.
产后甲状腺炎 我怎么没想到?
Postpartum thyroiditis? How did I miss that?
一开始是你的甲状腺过度活跃
At first, your thyroid is overactive.
症状很像典型的产后抑郁
The symptoms can feel like typical baby blues.
焦虑 失眠 易怒
Anxiety, insomnia, irritability.
就像是有了新生儿之后的压力
Looks like the stress of having a newborn,
但之后症状就会慢慢减轻 或者就你的情况来说 彻底消失
but then it starts to slow down, or in your case, shut down.
所以 我就这么好了?
So, I-I'm just... cured?
既然我们确定了潜在疾病
Well, now that we have identified the underlying condition,
就可以给你进行激素治疗了
we can get you started on some hormone therapy.
-麦迪 你没事吧? -没事 我就是如释重负
-Maddie, you all right? -Yeah, I'm... relieved.
自从有了她之后 我一直不知道自己是怎么了 所以...
Since having her, I didn't know what was wrong with me, so...
看来现在知道答案了
I guess now there is an answer.
是的
Yeah.
好了
Okay.
-你要把我转走? -你的治疗效果很好
-You're transferring me? -You're responding well to the treatment.
I think it's time to move you
我认为是时候把你
转到妇女中心的门诊项目了
to the outpatient program at the women's center.
这是好消息 麦迪 你可以回家了
This is good news, Maddie. You get to go home.
是的 太好了
Yeah. Great.
-那现在干什么? -我们去走走
-So now what? -Let's take a walk.
好吧
Okay.
-你来自波士顿? -对 土生土长的罗克斯伯里人
-So, are you from Boston? -Yeah, born and raised in Roxbury.
-你呢? -宾夕法尼亚人 目前住在加利福尼亚
-You? -Pennsylvania. Now California.
你怎么会来这里 加利福尼亚有很多好医院
What brought you here? Plenty of good hospitals in California.
我是这家医院培训出来的
I trained at this hospital.
以前是护士
I used to be a nurse.
-你为什么辞职? -就是有点受不了了
-So, why'd you quit? -Just got to be too much.
我理解
I get that.
有些病人会让你质疑自己的职业道路
Some of these patients will make you question your career path.
-你除外 -谢谢
-Present company excluded. -Ah, thank you.
但我还是觉得好处大于坏处
But I still think the good outweighs the bad.
能帮助别人 看着他们痊愈 好转
Helping people, being able to watch them heal and get better.
顺便一提 我说的是你
I'm talking about you, by the way.
你真认为我在好转吗
You really think that I'm getting better?
我不是医生 但我经历过你这种状况
I am no doctor, but I've been where you are,
我觉得你更坚强了
and I think you're getting stronger.
你比自己想象的更坚强 麦迪
You're stronger than you think you are, Maddie.
我们有很多短租房
We do a lot of short-term.
访问护士需要地方住 虽然档次不高 但...
Visiting nurses needing a place to crash. It's not fancy, but...
-没关系 我租了 -太好了
-It's fine. I'll take it. -Great.
你只需要填几份文件就行
I just need you to fill out some paperwork.
如果我预付房租呢 六个月
Uh, what if I just pay in advance? Six months.
你在参加医院的门诊项目吗
Are you part of the program over at the hospital?
是的
Yeah.
马萨诸塞地区医院 妇女心理健康诊所
我知道他是好意 但我不想再让他帮忙了
I know he means well, but I'm so tired of him trying to help.
我做不到强颜欢笑 吉姆
I can't just turn that frown upside down, Jim.
也许你可以带吉姆来参加 我们下次的朋友和家人讨论会
Maybe you can bring Jim to our next friends and family session.
-好 -今天就到这里 谢谢大家
-Okay. -Well, that's it for today. Thank you all.
我们周四见
I'll see you on Thursday.
她们都急着去哪?
So, where are they all rushing off to?
去学校或者幼儿园接孩子 跟平时一样
Oh, uh, school pickup, daycare, the usual.
-你不用吗 -我女儿跟她爸爸在一起
-Not you? -My daughter's with her dad.
现在见不到她
Can't see her right now.
我也是
Me either.
别喝了 街上有更好的咖啡
Oh, no, no. There's better coffee down the street.
你想去喝点吗 要是你不急着去哪的话
Do you want to go grab some? If you don't have anywhere else to be.
我也没别的地方可去
I have nowhere else to go.
电子邮件 麦迪·巴克利
霍华德·韩 锡安国家公园现场直播
巴克·巴克利 麦迪 发生什么了?
继续爬 到爸爸这来
Keep going. Come to Daddy.
对了 你做得很好 姬云
That's it. You're doing it. You're doing it, Jee-Yun.
等妈妈看到了 她一定会很骄傲的
Wait till Mommy sees this. She's gonna be so proud.
不 等等 别碰那个
No, wait. Don't touch that.
继续爬 到爸爸这来
Keep going. Come to Daddy.
对了 你做得很好 姬云
That's it. You're doing it. You're doing it, Jee-Yun.
等妈妈看到了 她一定会很骄傲的
Wait till Mommy sees this. She's gonna be so proud.
麦迪? 谢天谢地 你没事吧
Maddie? Thank God. Are-are you okay?
-烟囱怎么会在犹他州? -他离开家去找你了
-Why is Chimney in Utah? -He left town looking for you.
他发现了姬云的事
Found out what happened to Jee-Yun...
我让你别告诉他
I told you not to tell him.
不 是他自己弄明白的 等等
No, he-he figured it out on his own. Wait a minute,
你怎么知道烟囱在哪 你跟他说话了?
h-how do you know where Chimney is? Did... did you talk to him?
他用邮件给我发了段视频 小姬会爬了
He emailed me a video. I guess Jee's started crawling.
麦迪 求你了 告诉我你在哪
Maddie, please just tell me where you are.
我可以去接你 或者让烟囱去 无论你希望怎么样
I can come and get you. I-I-I can send Chimney, whatever you want.
我们需要知道你平安无事
We just, we need to know that you're safe.
我很安全 只是还没准备好
I am safe. I'm just... Not ready, not yet.
我得挂了 好吗?
Uh, I got to go, okay?
-爱你 -好...
-Love you. -Okay...
等等 你害怕老北教堂的钟声泄露了你的行踪?
So, you're freaking out over the Old North Church bell?
我还不能见他 我还没准备好
I can't see him yet. I'm not ready.
你还没准备好什么?
What-what-what do you mean, you're not ready?
我还没准备好回家 我还有很多事没想通
I'm not ready to go home. I still have so much that I have to work through.
还没准备好面对那一切
I'm just not ready to face all that.
麦迪 你是怕你的前任吗 他...
Maddie, are... are you afraid of your ex? Is he...
天哪 不 他绝不会
God, no. No, he would never...
但我确实认为他可能会恨我
But I do think he probably hates me.
他为什么要恨你?
Why would he hate you?
我差点害死我们的女儿
I almost killed our daughter.
我当时在给她洗澡 可能...打了个瞌睡
I was giving her a bath. I guess I... nodded off.
她滑进了水里 而且...
She slipped under the water and...
天哪
Oh, God.
什么样的妈妈能干出这种事
What kind of mom does that?
我认识你之前的那个星期
The-the week before I met you,
刚刚结束一个为期28天的 法院强制戒瘾项目
I was finishing up a 28-day court-mandated rehab program.
我酒后驾车
I got a DUI.
我儿子当时在后座
My-my-my son was in the backseat.
我发誓 我绝不是有意让他身处险境的
I-I swear, I swear I never meant to put him in any danger.
我...
I...
我只是不堪重负 就...
I was just so overwhelmed and...
你是在自我治疗 这不能说明你是坏人
You were self-medicating. That doesn't make you a bad person.
当我面临困境时 这是我唯一知道的应对方法
It's the only way I know how to deal when things get hard.
现在我前夫不让我见儿子
Now, my-my ex won't let me see my son.
我必须证明我不再是个危险因素
I have to prove... that I am not a danger anymore.
我很想念他
I miss him so much.
听着 麦迪 求你留下来
Maddie, please stay. Please.
你可能是我现在唯一的朋友了
I think you're probably the only friend I have right now.
除了你 没人知道这种感觉
No one else, no one else knows what this is like.
我只想为了她好起来
I just want to get better for her.
我知道
I know, I know,
我们可以互相帮助 好吗
and we... we can help each other. Okay?
-一起好起来 -好吧
-Get better together. -Okay.
然后我们俩都回家
Then we both go home.
是的 好
Yeah. Okay.
波士顿?
Boston?
没错 巴克确定自己在电话里听到了
Yeah, Buck is convinced he heard the bells of the Old North Church
老北教堂的钟声
in the background when she called.
独立战争报信的那个教堂?
The "One, if by land, two, if by sea" church?
这就是你说的线索?
As far as leads go, is that a lead?
至少是个开头
It's a place to start.
我的公寓怎么样了 有没有被你住成垃圾堆
So, how's my apartment? You trash the place yet?
还好吧
It's fine,
但你必须取消尿布订购了 好吗
uh, but you seriously need to cancel the diaper subscription, okay?
我快没下脚的地方了
I'm running out of room here.
现在我知道它们寄哪去了
Well, that explains where they are.
你觉得麦迪为什么要去那座教堂?
Why do you think Maddie went to that church?
我不记得她有参加过弥撒
I don't remember her ever going to mass.
是没有 但我听说那街角有家很棒的披萨店
No, but I hear there's a pretty great pizza joint around the corner.
所以你打算住在哪
So, where you staying?
租金比你住酒店要便宜得多
Room rate's a lot lower than what you're paying at the hotel.
你确定吗
You sure about this?
我感觉我占了很大便宜 伊莱
I mean, it feels like one hell of an imposition, Eli.
不会的 我们每年这个时候不怎么下来
Nah. We don't come down here that much this time of year.
但赛季一开始 那就是另一回事了
Once opening day rolls around, that's a different story.
我们四月之前就走 我保证 只是得先找到麦迪
We'll be gone by April, I promise. I just got to find Maddie first.
你忙你的
You do your thing.
多谢
Thanks.
警探还是拒绝了?
So, the detective still said no?
他说自己能做的不多
He said there wasn't much he could do,
不过他还是给巴克录了口供
but he did take Buck's statement,
现在会提交一份失踪人口报告
and now he will file a missing persons report.
但也就只能这样了
But that's it.
我们没有她在波士顿的证据 烟囱
Well, we have no proof that she's in Boston, Chimney,
甚至无法证明她在马萨诸塞州
or even anywhere in the state of Massachusetts.
是联邦
Commonwealth.
什么?
What?
马萨诸塞联邦
It's the Commonwealth of Massachusetts.
显然这里的人很在意这一点
Apparently, they really care about that here.
我来了
I'm coming.
我知道
I know, I know.
我知道
I know, I know.
是啊 我也希望你妈妈能在这里
Yeah, I wish your mom was here, too.
寻人启示 请联系霍华德·韩
-你好 盖尔 -晚上好 韩先生
-Hey, Gail. -Good evening, Mr. Han.
我本想问你今天怎么来了 但看来你会主动告诉我
I'd ask what brings you in here today, but I'm afraid you're about to tell me.
我就是转转 确保你们 没收治一个叫麦迪·巴克利
I'm just doing the rounds. Making sure you haven't admitted a Maddie Buckley
或者麦迪·肯德尔的病人
or a Maddie Kendall as a patient.
-韩先生... -接下来我可能要去停尸房了
-Mr. Han... -I guess I'll hit the morgue next.
你去过妇女诊所了吗
Been to the women's clinic yet?
隔壁那栋楼 他们专治产后抑郁
Next building over. They specialize in postpartum depression.
谢谢你
Thank you.
祝你好运
Good luck.
妇女心理健康诊所
给你 姬姬
There you go, Jee-Jee.
马萨诸塞地区医院
这是你最喜欢的 吃吧 宝贝
It's your favorite. Come on, honey.
吃吧
Come on.
-是你的最爱 香草豆... -这看上去像电影里的剧情
-It's your favorite. It's vanilla bean... -You know, this seems like the part of the movie
警探对案子过于执着
where the detective becomes a little too obsessed with the case,
他的上司不得不打发他回家
and his boss has to send him home.
首先 你不是我的上司
First off, you're not my boss.
其次 如果我们在你和莫莉这里赖得太久...
And, second, if we're overstaying our welcome with you and Molly...
我不在乎你们会不会一辈子住在我家地下室 好吗
No. I don't care if you stay in the basement forever. Okay?
不过我可能得开始收房租了
Though, I may have to start charging you rent.
我只是觉得这样不健康 霍威
But I don't think this is healthy, Howie.
我知道这听上去很离谱
I know it sounds crazy,
但我有种感觉 总有一天 她会从那栋楼里走出来
but I just got this feeling that, one day, she's gonna walk out of that building,
我希望那时我能在场 哪怕不是今天
and I want to be here when she does, even if it's not today.
-吃吧 宝宝 -你知道不是这样运作的吧
-Come on, baby. -You know that's not how it works, right?
什么?
What?
宇宙的法则
The universe.
你在这里坐了好几个月想让
You've been sitting here for months trying to manifest
麦迪从门里走出来这件事实现
Maddie walking out of those doors, but...
但你有没有想过 也许你得先支付宇宙一张账单
you know, have you considered maybe there's a... a cosmic tab you got to pay first?
我回答"没有" 因为我完全不懂你在说什么
I'm gonna go with "no" 'cause I have no idea what the hell you're talking about.
听着 你不能再这么过度执着于你的愿望了
Look, you need to stop being so obsessed with what you want.
你得离开长椅 回到现实世界 它需要你
Okay, you need to get off the bench and get back into the world. It needs you.
去干什么
To do what?
贡献一份力
To be of service.
也许宇宙就会回报你
Maybe the universe will return the favor.
或者放弃 然后回家
Or give up and go home.
-走吧 -好吧
-Come on. -All right.
圣帕特里克节 游行规则
由"男人的信念"提供 请享用
圣帕特里克节快乐
请低下头
Let us bow our heads.
我们今早齐聚一堂 纪念圣帕特里克
As we gather this morning to honor St. Patrick,
让我们感谢这光荣的一天
let us give thanks for this glorious day
并有机会作为"男人的信念"的成员 聚在一起
and the chance to come together as Faith of Men.
我不太舒服
I'm not feeling so good.
从今天早上排练开始
Ever since rehearsal this morning,
我好像...呼吸有困难
i-it's like I'm... I'm having trouble breathing.
你想让我怎么做?
Well, what do you want me to do?
振作点 我们还要参加游行
Just rally. We still got the parade.
感谢上帝赐给我们相聚的时光
Thank you, Lord, for this time together,
继续指引和鼓舞我们继承祢行善的事业
and for continuing to guide us and inspire us as we carry out your good work.
-他的头肿得像甜瓜 -闭嘴
-...swelled up just like a melon. -Shut up!
没人想听你说自己的光荣史
Nobody wants to hear about your glory days.
住嘴 奥马利 没人跟你说话
Stuff it, O'Malley. Ain't nobody talking to you.
下地狱吧 蠢货
Go to hell, jackass.
先生们 别这样
Gentlemen, please.
"男人的信念"的成员不应该这样
This is not how Faith of Men are supposed to behave.
开始演奏
Start playing.
也许音乐能让这些傻瓜冷静下来
Maybe the music will calm these idiots down.
天哪 默里
Oh, God. Murray!
这里是911 你有什么紧急情况?
有一名风笛手倒地不起 重复 一名风笛手倒地不起
请大家让让
All right, let's make a hole, guys.
我不懂 他们怎么会在祷告早餐会上供应啤酒
I'm confused. Why are they serving beer at a prayer breakfast?
鸡蛋和啤酒 圣帕特里克节必须有
Eggs and kegs. St. Patrick's Day tradition.
你说就是吧
If you say so.
出什么事了?
What happened here?
我们演奏时他倒了下去
Uh, he went down while we were playing.
之前他说过他呼吸有困难
Before that, he said he was having trouble breathing.
兰德尔 给他输氧
Randall, let's get him on some oxygen.
血压非常高 160/95
BP is extremely elevated, 160/95.
心率很快且不规律
Heart rate is rapid and irregular.
腿和脚踝呈现出肿胀
Legs and ankles also appear to be swollen.
压痕性水肿
Oh. Pitting edema.
可能是右侧心力衰竭
Could be possible right-sided heart failure.
-你朋友有心脏病史吗 -据我所知没有
-Does your friend have a history of heart trouble? -No, not that I know of.
-那糖尿病呢 -没有
-What about diabetes? -No.
他不是最健康的那种人
He's not the healthiest guy, but I never
但从未提过有糖尿病
heard him mention anything about diabetes.
-他咳嗽了一阵子 -咳嗽
-Um, he has had a cough for a while. -Cough.
有噼啪声 貌似肺部有严重损伤
Getting a crackling sound. Sounds like serious lung damage.
-他抽烟吗 -默里从没碰过烟
-Is he a smoker? -Not Murray. He never touched them.
也许是肺纤维化 是什么原因导致他此刻昏迷的呢
Maybe pulmonary fibrosis, but what would cause him to go down now?
你真的在问我吗
Are you for real asking me?
我们的志愿者训练课没讲那么深
Because our volunteer training didn't go that in depth.
你看起来很厉害的样子
You're like, smart.
你们是志愿者? 我叫的是急救人员
You're volunteers? I called the paramedics.
我们先到了 因为我们的帐篷就在街对面
And we arrived first 'cause our tent is across the street.
-医疗志愿者团队 -好吧
-Medical Volunteer Corps. -Okay.
他好像要醒了
Looks like he's coming around.
欢迎回来 默里 让我们搞清楚你的肺部是怎么了
Welcome back, Murray. Let's figure out what's going on with your lungs.
-风笛肺 -哪有这种病
-Bagpipe lung. -That can't be a real thing.
用医学术语说
Hypersensitivity pneumonitis,
就是过敏性肺炎
if you're looking for the medical term.
常见于吹奏管乐器和风笛的人身上
Happens to people who play wind instruments, and also bagpipes.
你在干吗 你会毁了他的风笛
W-What are you doing? You're gonna ruin his bagpipes.
我相信风笛已经被毁了
Yeah. Pretty sure they're already ruined.
我需要生物危害品袋 这里全是霉菌
I'm gonna need a biohazard bag. These are full of mold.
天知道你吸入了多久
You've been inhaling this for God knows how long.
已经对你的肺部造成了严重破坏
It's wreaked havoc on your lungs.
你上次清理这东西是什么时候
When was the last time you cleaned those things?
我从没清理过
Never.
难怪了
That'll do it.
算你走运 如果你继续吹下去 这些风笛会害死你
You're lucky. If you kept going, these bagpipes would've killed you.
医院会给你拍X光和验血
They're gonna do X-rays and bloodwork at the hospital,
可能会给你用皮质类固醇来修复损伤
probably put you on corticosteroids to reverse the damage.
风笛肺 我第一次见
Bagpipe lung. First time I've seen that.
准备好 朋友 你今天有很多都会是第一次见
Buckle up, my friend. You're about to have a lot of firsts today.
-你是志愿者 什么意思? -波士顿医疗志愿者团队
-What do you mean you're a volunteer? -Boston Medical Volunteer Corps.
基本上就是给醉鬼发放创可贴和瓶装水
It's mostly handing out Band-Aids and bottles of water to drunk people.
不过也能碰上一些奇事 你听说过风笛肺吗
There have been a few doozies, though. You ever hear of bagpipe lung?
听上去你已经在波士顿安稳下来了
Well, it sounds like you're really settling in to life in Boston.
说实话 我报名是为了让自己忙起来
Honestly, I really signed up to keep busy.
希望还能赚点钱
Just wish it really kept me paid, too.
我的存款余额现在很低了
My savings account balance is getting pretty low.
这里还有一份全职工作在等你呢
Well, you still have a full-time job waiting for you here.
烟囱
Chim?
别人开始打听你了
People are starting to ask questions.
我的回答还是一样 巴比
My answer is still the same, Bobby.
不找到麦迪我绝不回家
I'm not coming home without Maddie.
好 我得挂了
All right, I got to go.
我刚来的时候 都不知道自己想要什么
When I came here, I didn't know what to expect.
我感觉自己非常的糟糕
I felt so many terrible things about myself,
认为其他人也会这么想
I thought everyone else would, too.
然后 等我到了这里
Then, when I got here,
我意识到我没有疯 也不孤单
um, I realized I wasn't crazy or... alone.
你们治愈了我
You guys healed me.
让我感觉变得更坚强 我终于觉得自己准备好回家了
You made me feel stronger, and I finally feel like I'm ready to go home.
我只想说 谢谢你们大家
So, I just wanted to say thank you to all of you.
我很感激 尤其是你 基拉
I'm very grateful. Es-Especially you, Kira.
特意致谢
Oh, special shout-out.
我真幸运
Lucky me.
当我需要朋友时 你在我身边 没有你我做不到这一切
You were there when I needed a friend. I couldn't have done this without you.
好 让我们一起给她一轮掌声
Okay, let's all, let's all give her a round of applause.
我真高兴你能康复
I'm so glad that you are fixed.
我觉得麦迪不是那个意思 基拉
I don't think that's what Maddie's saying, Kira.
我们没人弄明白 否则就不用在这里了
None of us have it figured out. If we did, we wouldn't be here.
随便了
Whatever.
我很为你高兴 知道吗
I am so happy for you. Okay?
但对我们这些仍然问题缠身的人来说 真是太遗憾了
But, too bad for the rest of us who still have problems.
好了 各位 下午愉快
That's it, everyone. Have a great afternoon.
下次见
I'll see you next time.
基拉 等一下 刚才那是什么?
Hey, Kira, wait a second. What was that?
-我真的没心情听你说教 -没关系
-I'm really not in the mood for a lecture. -Okay, that's fine.
我只是想问问你的情况 因为你好像很不在状态
I just wanted to check on you 'cause you don't seem like yourself.
可能是因为抑郁症
Maybe it's the depression.
也可能是因为威士忌 你喝醉了
Maybe it's the whiskey. You're drunk.
你在乎干嘛?
What do you care?
你要走了
You're leaving.
我唯一的支柱正急着飞奔离开这里呢
My only support system's just hightailing it out of here.
我来这里是为了痊愈 为了能回家陪自己的家人
I came here to get well and to go home to my family.
这是我们计划好的
That was the plan, for both of us.
我犯的错太严重了
I've messed up too badly.
-我不配成为母亲 -你知道吗
-I don't deserve to be a mom. -Okay, you know what?
我六个月前对自己说过完全一样的话 但是我错了
I told myself exactly that same thing six months ago, and I was wrong.
我好起来了 你也可以
I got better. You can, too.
今天下午之前是不行了
Not by this afternoon.
-我有一次监督探访 -不 你不能这副样子出现
-I have a supervised visitation. -No, no, no. You can't, you can't show up like this.
-我不能不出现 -好吧 约的是几点?
-I can't not show up. -Okay, what time is the appointment?
三点
3:00.
跟我来 我有个主意
Come on, I have an idea.
马萨诸塞地区医院
你要干吗
What are you doing?
不 我不能入院
No, no, no, no. I-I-I cannot be admitted.
不行 如果被我前夫发现 我就再也见不到我儿子了
No. If my ex finds out, I won't be able to see my son.
-抱歉... -我不是要让你入院 我在帮你
-I'm sorry... -Okay, I'm not admitting you. I'm not admitting you. I'm helping you.
坐在这里
Sit right here.
我去给你拿个香蕉袋 它会让你清醒起来 我马上回来
I'm gonna get you a banana bag. It'll sober you up. I'll be right back.
麦迪
Maddie?
你的照片怎么会在公告栏上?
Why is your face on the bulletin board?
失踪
什么?
What?
这是你
That's you.
天啊 他还在找我
Oh, my God, he's still looking for me.
我记得你说过他恨你
I thought you said he hated you.
你说谎
You lied.
我没说谎
I didn't lie.
一直以来 我都以为我们同病相怜
All this time, I thought that we were in the same boat.
被我们的前任惩罚 无法见到自己的孩子
Being punished by our exes. Not being able to-to see our kids.
但你随时可以回去的 对吗
But you could've gone back any time, right?
为了见到儿子 我得拼命斗争 而你是丢下了他们
I'm fighting like hell to see my son, and you left them.
我必须那么做 好吗
I had to. Okay?
当时对她和对我来说都很危险 而且我...
It was dangerous for her and for me, and I...
我需要求助 需要好起来
I needed to get help and to get better.
恭喜你 麦迪
Congratulations, Maddie.
你是好起来了
You're better.
你再也不需要我了
You don't need me anymore.
基拉
Kira!
不好意思 抱歉
Excuse me. Sorry.
抱歉
Sorry.
波士顿 圣帕特里克节
蛇咬伤
Snake bite.
看起来像是局部组织损伤
Looks like localized tissue damage.
把他的手固定并举到心脏上方
Let's immobilize his hand and elevate it above his heart.
不要再让它继续肿了
Don't want it to swell more than it is.
不 它会让我的心脏肿起来吗
Oh, no. The venom's making my heart swell.
-我要死了 -不 我是说你的手
-Oh, I'm gonna die. -No, I meant your hand,
而且统计数据表明 人们一般不会死于蛇咬伤
and statistically speaking, people don't die from snake bites.
但人要是犯傻就是另一回事了
Stupidity, that's another story.
这样就行了? 不用止血带吗
So, that's it? What about a tourniquet?
或者我们可以把伤口割开 吸出毒液?
Or maybe we can cut it and suck out the poison?
这正是你不应该做的
That is exactly what you're not supposed to do.
-他最需要的是抗蛇毒血清 -好疼
-Antivenom is his best bet. -Oh, it stings!
我不知道你带没带 但我肯定没带
And I don't know about you, but I'm not packing any.
这个主意不错 我们应该要一些
That's not a bad idea. We should ask for that.
每年都有一些蠢货扮成圣帕特里克
Every year, there's always some asshat dressed as St. Patrick
假装把蛇赶出爱尔兰
pretending to drive the snakes out of Ireland.
我原以为洛杉矶的五月五日节 就够疯狂的了
And I thought Cinco de Mayo in Los Angeles was crazy.
基拉 我是麦迪
Hey. Kira, it's Maddie.
请给我打电话 好吗 我只想确定你没事
Um, just, please, call me, okay? I... Just want to make sure you're all right.
保安
先生 我在找一个女人
Sir, I'm looking for a woman.
30岁后半 金发 大概这么高 可能喝醉了
She's late 30s. Blonde. About this tall and probably drunk.
一个喝醉的女人 范围缩小不少
Oh, a drunk woman. That narrows it down.
你知道今天是圣帕特里克节吧?
You know it's St. Patrick's Day, right?
身体前倾 对了 请你扶住
Lean forward a bit for me. There you go. If you could hold that, please.
哪都没断 可以交给你们了
Nothing's broken. Looks like he's all yours.
谢了 走吧
Thanks. Let's go.
这人试图拿把拐杖抢银行?
So this guy tried to rob a bank with a stick?
准确来说是根橡木棍
Uh, technically it's a shillelagh.
头上是橡胶的
And a rubber one at that.
-你怎么想的? -她偷了我一罐金子
-What were you thinking? -She stole me pot o' gold.
你知道自己不是真的小精灵吧
You know you're not actually a leprechaun, right?
基拉 给我打电话 我很担心你
Hey, Kira, call me. I'm really worried about you.
我要去快餐车那买龙虾卷吃 你们想要点什么吗
Hey, I'm gonna go grab a lobster roll from the food truck. You want anything?
当然了 一定要放蛋黄酱
Sure. Just make sure there's no mayo on it.
我感觉你不知道什么是龙虾卷
I sense you have no idea what a lobster roll is.
给他带一份就得了
Just grab him one anyway.
三份龙虾卷很快就来
Three lobster rolls coming up.
再次出来做点事感觉如何?
So how is it? Being of service again.
说真的 这是差不多一年来 我感觉最好的时候
Honestly, it's the best I've felt in probably a year.
上车
Get in the car.
嘿 看着点
Hey, watch it.
-他没事吧? -不可能没事 看看
-Whoa. Is he all right? -No way. Look at this.
那是把斧头吗
Is that an axe?
你得看看这个
You gotta see this.
盖布
Gabe. Gabe!
我的天 盖布
Oh, my God, Gabe!
-是你干的吗 -我们在玩扔斧头
-You did this? -We were axe throwing,
他在我面前绊了一下 我没扔到靶子上 扔到他头上了
and he stumbled in front of me, and I-I hit him instead of the target.
没有脉搏 没有呼吸
No pulse. He's not breathing.
-我本想说进行胸部按压 但... -他头上还有把斧头呢
-I'd say start compressions, but... -There's an axe in his head?
兰德尔 那个三明治价牌 快拿过来
Randall, that sandwich board, bring it over here!
-扶他坐起来 -我扶着头
-Okay. Okay, let's get him into a seated position. -I got his head.
兰德尔 把板子放在他身后 伊莱会扶住他
Randall, put the board behind him. Eli will hold him up
-我来做胸部按压 -我做什么?
-while I do compressions. -What do I do?
扶稳他的头 保持他的呼吸道畅通
Okay, hold his head, keep his airway clear.
我能不看着他的头干这事 对吗
I can do that without looking at his head, right?
霍威 看你的了
Howie, on your count.
感觉就像回到了从前 对不对?
Feels like old times, doesn't it?
目前还没人吐在我身上
Well, nobody's puked on me yet.
-老天 -我那不是在提示你 兰德尔
-Oh, God. -That is not an invitation, Randall.
检查脉搏
Pulse check.
脉搏恢复 我们救活他了
Pulse is back. We got him.
调度中心 我是急救人员科布
Dispatch, this is Paramedic Cobb.
马上转移一名年轻男子到默西海滨医院
About to transport a young male with an axe in his head
他头上有把斧头
to Mercy Shore Hospital.
好 固定住再移动
Okay, let's secure it and move him.
-我能做什么? -要不去下下棋
-What can I do? -You can take up chess.
抱歉
Sorry.
我讨厌今天
I hate this day.
-基拉? -不是
-Ah, Kira? -No.
我是肖恩神父酒吧的酒保
This is the bartender down at Father Sean's Pub.
-你的朋友可能需要帮助 -好的
-I think your friend needs some help. -Okay.
斧头男正要去做手术
Hey. Our axe man's heading into surgery.
很好 我的轮班结束了
Okay, great. Oh, my shift's over.
我得回去了 还要把背心交上去
I should get back, maybe, and turn in this vest.
跟我坐救护车走 我送你
Oh, ride in the rig with me. I'll drop you off.
你确定吗 要是又接到急救电话呢
You sure? What if another call comes in?
我让你开警灯和警笛
I'll let you use the lights and sirens.
天哪 她在呕吐
Oh, God, she's puking.
不 她不小心吸入了呕吐物 快让她侧躺下
No. No, she's aspirating. Come on, we've got to get her on her side.
-基拉 快打911 -好的
-Kira?! Call 911. -All right.
-911 -我在肖恩神父酒吧
-911. -Yes, I'm calling from Father Sean's Pub.
-有个年轻女人需要帮助 -基拉 坚持住
-We have a young woman here who needs help. -Kira, come on.
-她可能不小心吸入了异物 -醒醒
-We think she might be aspirating. -Wake up.
很好 街区那边就有个急救队
Good. Good! There's a unit just down the block.
很好 去拦住他们
Good. Wave 'em down.
基拉 坚持住 醒醒
Kira, come on, wake up. Come on, Kira, wake up!
-这边 嘿 -坚持住
-Over here! Hey! -Come on.
-快点 -基拉 醒醒
-Yeah, yeah, yeah, come on. -Kira, wake up.
她在这边
Over here.
她在这边 快点
She's here. Come on!
我的天
Oh, my God,
-快点 -在这边
-hurry. -Over here. Over here.
她就在这
She's right here.
-她在这里 -请让让 什么情况?
-Come on. She's right here. -Excuse me. Excuse me. What do we got?
她38岁 酒精中毒
She's 38 years old. Alcohol poisoning.
吸入了呕吐物 没有反应
She's aspirated vomit. She's unresponsive.
-她晕过去多久了 -我不知道
-How long has she been out? -I don't know.
我做了胸骨摩擦 但她还是没有醒
I did a sternal rub but she's not coming to.
-她在服用任何药物吗 -一些抗抑郁处方药
-Is she on anything? -Prescriptions for antidepressants.
-其他药物呢 违禁药物? -我不知道
-Any other drugs? Illegal substances? -I don't know.
不好意思 让让 借过
Pardon me. Make a hole! Coming through.
麦迪?
Maddie?
霍威
Howie.
她是急性酒精中毒
We have acute alcohol intoxication,
心率很低
heart rate severely low.
血压80/60 体温很低
BP 80/60 and she's cold to the touch.
-开始抽吸 把她移上轮床 -收到
-Let's start suction and get her on a gurney. -Copy that.
你没事吧?
You okay?
-没事 小姬跟你在一起吗 -她很好
-Y-Yeah. Is Jee with you? -She's fine.
我出来重新做急救员时 她待在一个朋友那里
She's staying with a friend while I play paramedic again.
好了 准备好抽吸了
All right, suction's ready.
38岁女性急性酒精中毒
38-year-old female with acute alcohol poisoning,
吸入呕吐物后在现场失去意识
unresponsive on the scene after aspirating vomit.
输了一升的乳酸林格氏液
Administered fluid and bolused one liter of LR.
用机械抽吸方式清理了呼吸道
Used mechanical suction to clear airway.
生命指征稳定
Vitals are stable.
我想她会没事的 幸好你及时找到了她
I think she'll be okay. It's a good thing you found her in time.
对了 我叫伊莱
I'm, uh, I'm Eli, by the way.
我们还没正式认识过
We were never formally introduced.
-麦迪 我听说过很多你的事 -彼此彼此
-Maddie. I've heard a lot about you. -Same.
这段时间他一直把你和女儿挂在嘴边
You and that little girl are about all he talks about these days.
他在哪?
Where is he?
可能在外面 我想他需要一点时间
Uh, probably outside. I think he needed a minute.
我也是
Me, too.
他过得怎么样? 我知道我可以自己问他
How is he... really? I mean, I know that I could ask him myself.
但你觉得他会对你往轻了说?
But he'd probably sugarcoat it for you?
他刚来时简直是一团糟
When he showed up, he was a mess.
他很担心你
He was worried about you.
担心姬云 因内疚而备受折磨
He was worried about Jee-Yun, and he was racked with guilt.
内疚? 离开的人是我
Guilt? I'm the one that left.
没错 但他觉得他负有责任
Yeah, but he's the one that feels responsible.
伊莱说你会在这里
Eli said you would be here.
他说对了
He was right.
他通常都能说对 这是他最令人恼火的特质之一
He usually is. It's one of his more annoying traits.
但其实这次他说错了
But actually, this time he was wrong.
在那些日子里 我坐在这条长椅上
You see, all those days that I spent sitting right here on this bench
确信你会从门里走出来
convinced you would walk out those doors,
他说我疯了
he said I was crazy.
可你真的来了
And here you are.
我知道你一定有很多问题
I know that you must have a lot of questions.
我知道你为什么离开 麦迪
I know why you left, Maddie.
但还不确定你为什么不回来
Still not sure why you stayed away.
因为我认为自己永远也好不起来
Because I didn't think I'd ever get better.
感觉我在你们身边不安全
And it didn't feel safe to be around any of you.
姬云洗澡那件事是个意外
What happened with Jee-Yun and the bathtub, that was an accident.
但我试图自杀不是
But trying to kill myself wasn't.
你什么?
You what?
我把她留在消防局时 心里想: "好吧
When I dropped her off at the firehouse I thought that's it,
她安全了"
she's safe.
所以我开车去了海边
So I drove up the coast,
找到一片沙滩
I found a beach,
走进海里
and I walked into the ocean.
脑子里全是我这辈子犯过的错误
My head was so full of all the mistakes I had made in my life,
心里想着没有我 大家都能过得更好
and I just thought everybody would be better off without me.
一开始会感到难过 没错
Sad at first, yeah.
但是慢慢那种感觉就消散了
But that would fade.
至于小姬 她那么小 甚至不会记住我这个妈妈
And Jee, she's so young, she wouldn't even remember me as her mommy.
你怎么能这么想?
How could you even think that?
-麦迪 如果你死了 我永远都不... -不会原谅你自己
-Maddie, if you died, I would never... -Never forgive yourself.
我为了你才从海里走出来
I got out of the ocean for you.
为了你们两个
For both of you.
但我必须留在这里
But I had to stay here
学会不再逃避
to learn to stop running.
麦迪
Maddie...
我愿意做任何事情来帮你
I would have done anything to help you.
我每天都自责不已 恨自己做得不够多
I beat myself up every day that I didn't do more.
我很抱歉让你经历这一切
I'm so sorry for everything that I put you through.
我很抱歉我没能陪在你身边
I'm sorry that I wasn't there for you.
-你一直都在 -但是不够
-You were there. -Not enough.
我责怪自己让你离开 没能注意到或者说是忽视了
I blame myself for you leaving, for missing the warning signs.
那些征兆
Or maybe ignoring them.
我只是很希望你能平安无事
I just wanted so badly for you to be okay, I just...
就假装你没事
I pretended that you were okay.
我有段时间也是这么做的
I think I did, too, for a while.
看来我们俩都把很多时间 用在了躲避事实上
I guess we both spent too much time hiding from the truth,
我不想再那样做了
and I don't want to do that anymore.
我也是
Me either.
不再假装
No more pretending.
从现在起 我们要坦诚相待 说出我们的感受
From now on, let's just be honest about how we feel,
还有我们想要的
and what we want.
好
Okay.
你想要什么?
What do you want?
她在小睡 很快就该醒了
She should be awake from her nap soon.
她在那
There she is.
看看谁来了 姬云 是妈妈
Look who's here, Jee-Yun. It's Mommy.
她这么大了
She's so big.
我对天发誓 我喂的是正常饭量
I swear to God, I've been feeding her normal portions.
你抱抱她吧
You probably want to hold her.
不 她一直不喜欢陌生人
Uh, she never liked strangers.
麦迪 你不是陌生人
Maddie, you're not a stranger.
我想我是的
I think I am.
麦迪
Maddie...
她长大了这么多
She's grown up so much.
我错过了? 我全都错过了吗?
I missed it. I missed all of it.
你们想好接下来怎么办了吗
So you figure out what's next?
我是说 是回洛杉矶
I mean, back to L.A.,
还是我该帮你们介绍一份工作?
or should I be getting you a job application?
我不知道
I don't know.
她明显还在缅怀过去
It didn't feel right asking her about the future
问她将来有什么打算感觉不合适
when she was so clearly mourning the past.
不是你梦想中的美好重逢吧
Not the glorious reunion you'd been dreaming of, huh?
我从没想到那么远
I never really thought that far.
你知道吗 我无数次想象过找到她的情形
I mean, I imagined finding her a million times, you know?
我看着她 她看着我
I'd see her, she'd see me.
电影总是在这里就结束了
Movie always ended right there.
他们过上了幸福的生活
They live happily ever after.
是的
Yeah.
希望片尾的演职员表那段没那么扫兴
Kind of wishing the end credit sequence was less of a bummer.
我对她的离开
You know, I was really mad at her
其实很生气
for not being there.
但今晚我是第一次意识到
But tonight was the first time I realize what leaving
离开让她付出了什么代价
actually cost her.
在我们有了女儿之后
You know, after we had our girls,
莫莉想留在家陪伴她们 所以我就回去上班了
Molly wanted to stay home with them, so I went back to work.
我基本上每次离开都会说同样的话
And every time I left, I always said the same thing:
"我爱你 回头打给你
"I love you. I'll call you later.
我不在家时 别让她们太淘气了"
Don't let 'em do anything cool while I'm gone."
也许我能早点找到她就好了
Maybe if I'd just found her earlier.
你已经尽力了 霍威
You did everything you could, Howie.
不管你还有别的什么感觉 记住这一点
All right, no matter what else you're feeling, know that.
我只想治好她
I just wanted to fix her, you know?
让一切都好起来
Just make it all okay.
哪怕你知道治好她不是你的责任?
Even though you know fixing her isn't your responsibility?
是的
Yeah.
我怎么老是这样?
Why do I always do that?
你就是这种人
It's how you're wired.
通过帮助别人来帮助自己
Helping people is how you help yourself.
还有 因为你爱她
And because you love her.
我知道自己错过了很多 已经过去六个月了
I knew I had missed a lot, and it's been six months,
但是看到她...
but seeing her...
才觉得真实?
Made it real?
太真实了
Too real.
我没想到会感觉这么受伤
I just wasn't prepared for how much it was gonna hurt.
看着她时 我看到了 自己错过的每一个重要时刻
I mean, looking at her, I saw every milestone I've missed.
但这并不代表你不能在她身边 见证其他的重要时刻
But that doesn't mean that you can't be there for... all the other ones.
你呢
What about you?
跟社工谈过了吗
Did you talk to your social worker?
是的
Yeah.
我必须回去接受脱瘾治疗
Um, I have to go back to detox,
然后又是一个60天的门诊疗程
then... another 60 days outpatient.
你会参加吗
And are you gonna do it?
如果我想见到我儿子 是的 我必须参加
If I want to see my son. Yeah. I have to.
谢谢你救了我一命
Thank you for saving my life.
我不记得自己说过什么了
I don't remember everything I said,
但我知道自己能多过分 我很抱歉
but, um, I know how I can get. I'm sorry.
没关系 你很受伤
It's okay. You were hurting.
那种时候我们无法一直处于最佳状态
We're not always our best selves when that happens.
我很高兴你没事了
I'm really glad you're okay.
不 还不能这么说
Well, not yet.
但我会继续努力
But I'm gonna keep trying.
我必须努力
I have to.
不只是为了我 也是为了罗比
Not just for me, but for Robbie.
我是不是离开得太久了?
Was I gone too long?
我无法找回失去的时间了
I can't get back the time I lost.
没错
No.
但你可以向前看
But you can move forward.
要那样 唯一的办法就是原谅自己
And the only way to do that is to forgive yourself.
麦迪
And, Maddie,
不要害怕去争取自己想要的
don't be afraid... to fight for what you want.
-嘿 -嘿
-Hey. -Hey.
我的宝贝女儿今天怎么样?
Aww, how's my girl today?
我发誓 她哭不是因为你
I promise it's not you.
我们来的路上经过一个公园
We walked by a park on the way here,
我说现在不能去玩 她就很生气
and she got very angry when I said it wasn't playtime.
没关系 我们可以去公园
Oh, that's okay, we can go to a park.
没关系的
That's fine.
我们应该等至少一个小时
Uh, I think we should wait at least an hour.
我不希望她觉得自己一发脾气 我就屈服了 你知道吧
I don't want to make it look like I caved in to a tantrum, you know.
对 她这么大 应该懂了
Right. Oh, right, she's old enough to have those now.
来吧 姬云
Oh... come on, Jee-Yun.
你不想打个招呼吗
Don't you want to say hi?
来吧 姬云
Come on, Jee-Yun.
你不想跟妈妈打个招呼吗
Don't you want to say hi to Mommy? Hmm?
不骗你 这可能比 再经历一次腹绞痛阶段更难受
I'm not gonna lie, this might be worse than going through colic all over again.
能让我试一招吗
Can I try something?
欢迎你试 但如果不起作用也别介意
Be my guest, but don't be offended if it doesn't work.
巴士上的轮子转啊转
♪ The wheels on the bus go round and round ♪
转啊转 转啊转
♪ Round and round, Round and round ♪
你喜欢听吗
You like that?
巴士上的轮子转啊转
♪ The wheels on the bus go round and round. ♪
妈妈
Mama.
她刚才是...
Did she just...
她听出了你的声音
She recognized your voice.
她怎么会记得我?
How does she remember me?
她当然记得你
Of course she remembers you.
无论是六个月 六年...
Six months, six years.
我们都不会忘记你
Neither of us could ever forget you.
好吧 你现在有何打算?
Okay. So, what do you want to do now?
我想回家
I want to go home.
好
Okay.
好的
Okay.
嗨
Hi. Hi.
-跟我们一起回家吗 小姬 -想听我再唱一遍吗
-Go home with us, Baby Jee? -Want to do it again?
巴士上的轮子转啊转
♪ The wheels on the bus, Go round and round ♪
转啊转 转啊转
♪ Round and round, Round and round. ♪
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